Sigh.
A better week... Decision made regarding jobs. All the dissatisfaction and distress about working in the nhs has come to a point. After discussion with my closest friends and family I've decided that my persistently-perfection chasing personality needs a gear change.
No longer can I abide being put on a pedestal, no longer can I perform in a way that affects my health.
Quit date is March 2011.
I can't wait. The two months after I leave the nhs are going to be used to relax, travel and organize my thoughts.